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[21 Jan 2006|11:52pm] |
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i don't think I'll be updating anymore
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[31 Jan 2005|12:20pm] |
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I hate making stupid mistakes that can be avoidable. For that I hurt someone deeply, from a stupid joke that isn't even funny. Don't know if she's actually hurt, just scarred by my words I guess. I said I would love her and care for her always. She seemed happy when I said that. Then I felt guilty; I didn't want to make a promise like that when I'm not sure if I can keep it. Her life has already been tainted with broken promises.
Another problem is with Isaac. It's really tense whenever we talk sometimes about her. He seems to think I stole a really good friend from him even though I didn't do anything. But still, him and I are tight. I was casually/Jokingly saying "Maybe I should pass you on to Isaac, Ha Ha." And she goes "Wut, why" and went: "What if I died one day? I can't take care of you." "You won't be dying. Stop thinking of stupid things." or something along the lines of that. Then I went, "I might leave you one day? I don't know... I felt guilty for making that promise" After she said no more and got off. I didn't mean it that way, that I'll give you away and leave you. I know you hate that 'casted away' feeling and that was exactly the way I made you feel.
If anyone is a shit...
It's me, not you honey... I'm so sorry.
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[30 Dec 2004|06:37pm] |
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I hate lj. Mi-chan, feel special please.
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